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Wednesday, 17 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 351 of 2025

1014hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 15 days

Some or even many readers of this daily weblog must be wondering why I'm giving so much time to describing my daily sleeping pattern. Well, this routine is the difference between success & failure. If I can stabilise my routine of sleeping between 2000hrs (8pm) and 0300hrs (3am) I will most definitely succeed. If I don't, I will fail. It is as simple as that.

Yesterday evening, I got to bed at about 2030hrs (8:30pm) and tried to sleep but felt compelled to respond to a call from the UK at c. 2200hrs (10pm). Yes, I did get to sleep soon after but despite waking sometime after 0300hrs (3am) I didn't quite get up till about 0645hrs (6:45am). 

I understand that I need to work much harder on this critical aspect of our struggle.

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Tuesday, 16 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 350 of 2025

0625hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 16 days

This past evening, I managed to get to sleep by 2100hrs (9pm) and I actually woke at about 0030hrs (30 minutes after midnight) initially before falling back to sleep and waking at 0412hrs (more improvement overall), just 1 hour and 12 minutes behind my target routine. I continued lying in bed because of a flu but did eventually get up at 0600hrs.

I feel with intensity that I am almost there, where I want to be in terms of an ideal daily routine. Our fortunes will change subsequently.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
16
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
185
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
485

Cash in Hand: 52,700
Cash Deposits: 3,52,580
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (68 days - up to midnight 15/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)
5K (Day 66)

Total received so far: 2,55,400  

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Monday, 15 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 349 of 2025

0448hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 17 days

This is a lot better! I got up at 0418hrs today, having got to bed at 2030hrs (8:30pm) yesterday evening and fallen asleep by 2200hrs (10pm). This is my best start yet, in quite a while. Now, I'm only 1 hour 18 minutes behind an ideal start to the day.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
15
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
186
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
481

Cash in Hand: 53,200
Cash Deposits: 0
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (67 days - up to midnight 14/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)
5K (Day 66)

Total received so far: 2,55,400  

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Sunday, 14 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 348 of 2025

1008hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 18 days

Yes, there has been improvement compared to yesterday's lapse. I did get up before the 0600hrs 'danger zone', though still almost 3 hours behind my ideal start to the day. Last night I did get to sleep at around 2200hrs (10pm).

This is a shortfall in me and it may prove costly for the nation, if I don't sort it out, as imminently as possible.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
15
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
186
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
459

Cash in Hand: 57,140
Cash Deposits: 0
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (66 days - up to midnight 13/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)
5K (Day 66)

Total received so far: 2,55,400  

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Saturday, 13 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 347 of 2025

1058hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 19 days

Today was a lapse if compared to the past week or so. I got up at 0745hrs today, 4 hours and 45 minutes behind schedule, having got to sleep at about midnight. It was an eventful day yesterday, with our 1st of 3 #AwaamiAdaalat sessions, ensuring that many a guest continued to visit Maqbool Bhat Martyr's Square throughout the evening.

There can never be any excuses though. One is always responsible for their own actions.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
15
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
186
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
459

Cash in Hand: 57,640
Cash Deposits: 0
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (65 days - up to midnight 12/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)

Total received so far: 2,50,400  

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Friday, 12 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 346 of 2025

0653hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 20 days

I am consistently getting up before 0600hrs. In fact I woke at 0252hrs today but thought that 8 minutes more rest was deserved. However, I didn't get up till 0558hrs despite going to sleep just after 2100hrs (9pm). Its a tough fight to get oneself into a routine of sleeping at 2000hrs and getting up at 0300hrs. Yet I am certain that I am well on my way of getting there, like never ever before.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
15
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
186
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
459

Cash in Hand: 57,000
Cash Deposits: 0
Immediate Debts: 3,000

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (64 days - up to midnight 11/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)

Total received so far: 2,50,400  

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Thursday, 11 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 345 of 2025

0631hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 21 days

The intent was obviously there but despite getting to bed by 2030hrs and fighting to sleep I didn't succeed until 2300hrs and got up at 0558hrs this morning. Still almost 3 hours behind the optimum day. I need to fight harder.

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Kuldeep Pandita has more words of wisdom to offer:

Tanveer Ahmed

How I access the history of Jihad in the valley
I hope your blog will be brave enough to give this write up its due space..
Nevertheless here it is

#rudranotes

The Fourfold Reckoning: Jihads of the Valley's Soul

In the shadow of Shalimar's frozen gardens, where the Jhelum whispers secrets of forgotten kings like Zain-ul-Abidin, a murmur rises from the Valley's heart: they said there are three jihads in force in the Valley. One more shall even the tables.

This is no mere slogan scrawled on a bunker wall; it pulses with the cadence of prophecy, a Kashmiri requiem for a land caught in eternal dialectic.

Think of it as echoing poets like Habba Khatoon, whose laments for lost lovers mirrored a people's exile, or modern militants' fatwas, framing conflict as divine phases ordained by the unseen hand of history. The first jihad erupted like a mountain storm in (19) '89—armed militancy at its rawest, boys with Kalashnikovs dreaming of caliphates amid the rubble of bunkers. Hizbul Mujahideen's thunder rolled through Srinagar's alleys, Lashkar-e-Taiba's fire scorched the Pir Panjal passes.

Schoolboys turned shaheeds, their blood scripting azadi on snow-dusted streets. This lesser jihad of flesh and fury birthed a generation of ghosts, where every crackdown fuelled the blaze—CRPF convoys ambushed, pellets blinding the innocent. It was the body's rebellion, visceral and immediate, yet it merely cracked the earth's crust. The second jihad shifted to shadowed boardrooms and fractured alliances: political separatism, waged with words sharper than steel. Hurriyat elders, kufis tilted like question marks, bartered in Delhi's corridors of power and Islamabad's labyrinthine bazaars.

UN resolutions yellowed like forgotten love letters, Article 370 frayed like a prayer rug under bureaucratic shears. Plebiscite pleas echoed in empty chambers, while engineered elections mocked the mandate of the masses. This was chess played on a bloodstained board—pawns sacrificed for kings who watched from afar, their diplomacy a veil over deeper designs.

The third jihad burns unseen, infiltrating the mind's hidden chambers: ideological and cultural, a war of whispers in the digital age. It flickers on Facebook feeds and encrypted Telegram chats, radicalizing restless youth who scroll past Bollywood glamour for beheading clips and fatwa threads. Cultural erosion clashes with demographic defiance—mosques amplify not just the azan, but algorithms of awakening. Here, online radicalization seeds sleeper cells in suburban homes, while assertions of identity reclaim narratives from history's erasers.

Consciousness fractures along these fault lines: the atman wrestles maya in pixelated dawns, as Sufi introspection meets Salafi fire. One more shall even the tables. The fourth jihad looms as a hypothetical tipping point, perhaps a mass uprising of the silenced millions or external intervention shattering the stalemate—not with guns or gavels alone, but a primordial surge of the collective soul. This mirrors prophetic styles in Urdu ghazals or Sufi texts, like those of Allama Iqbal, urging transformation amid oppression: Sarfaroshi ki tamanna ab hamare dil mein hai—the desire for uprising now stirs our hearts.

Iqbal's Asrar-e-Khudi (Secrets of the Self) frames it as ego's reconstruction, where oppression forges a new ummah, much like Habba Khatoon's Yusmane mane govan evokes longing turned to resolve. Philosophically, these phases probe the epistemology of resistance: are they external forces imposed by Delhi's iron fist or Islamabad's proxies, or inner dialectics of the self?

In Vedantic terms, the Valley embodies the play of purusha (consciousness) against prakriti (nature's chains), Hegel's thesis-antithesis barrelling toward synthesis. The three jihads represent maya's escalating illusions—militant rage, political mirage, cultural corrosion—culminating in the greater jihad: self-realization as revolution. When the Valley's atman stirs like Shiva's tandav, shattering colonial illusions, equilibrium dawns.

Oppressors' scales tip, not by fleeting force but the inexorable karma of history. The Jhelum flows free, tables evened in clay and cosmos. Yet this reckoning demands caution. Prophecy can intoxicate, birthing cycles anew. Will the fourth jihad liberate, or merely rename the chains? Kashmiris, stewards of Sufi syncretism—from Lalla Ded's ecstatic verses to Agha Shahid Ali's elegies—must wield it as mirror, not sword, reclaiming agency from zealots and states alike.

Asif Maqbool read it twice..

Lal Farosh rates the essay by his experience.

And Bansi Lal Reshi ji shares it with his friends.

End....

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
15
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
186
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
459

Cash in Hand: 57,580
Cash Deposits: 0
Immediate Debts: 3,000

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (63 days - up to midnight 10/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)

Total received so far: 2,50,400  

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Wednesday, 10 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 344 of 2025

0626hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 22 days

Despite a challenging night without an evening assistant (to make kahwa and put embers of the evening fire into a tin pot to keep the tent warm for the night) I still headed to bed by 2030hrs (8:30pm), waking initially at 0443hrs but not getting up till 0551hrs.

This is still a clear improvement but the 0300hrs start remains elusive. Not for long though.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
15
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
186
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
443

Cash in Hand: 60,640
Cash Deposits: 0
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (62 days - up to midnight 09/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)

Total received so far: 2,50,400  

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Tuesday, 9 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 343 of 2025

0600hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 23 days

An improvement has been made, mainly because I got to bed at 2024hrs (8:24pm) and fell asleep by 2100hrs (9pm). I easily got up by 0530hrs, which is about an hour and a half's improvement on what has effectively been my modal average over the recent past viz. 0700hrs.

I now only have an hour to bridge at the top end (evening) and 2 and a half hours at the bottom end (morning). 

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
15
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
186
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
438

Cash in Hand: 60,990
Cash Deposits: 0
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (61 days - up to midnight 08/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)

Total received so far: 2,50,400  

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Daily Diary (DD) - Day 351 of 2025

1014hrs: Countdown to end of 2025: 15 days Some or even many readers of this daily weblog must be wondering why I'm giving so much time ...