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Sunday, 21 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 355 of 2025

0603hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 11 days

Today I woke up earlier than yesterday, which is always a sign of progress, albeit still 2 hours and 36 minutes later than the targeted time of 0300hrs. Having said that, I fell asleep much later than usual, going just beyond 2300hrs (11pm). Still waking up at 0536hrs is indicating improved resilience and that has got to be a good sign.

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Saturday, 20 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 354 of 2025

0654hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 12 days

Climbing back up towards where I should be. Woke earlier but got up at 0624hrs. I didn't get to sleep till beyond 2200hrs (10pm) last night. Its those 7 hours out of 24 that remain my priority to work on (getting rest between 2000hrs and 0300hrs).

With only 12 days remaining, I can almost hear the clock ticking.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
16
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
188
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
83
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
505

Cash in Hand: 54,280
Cash Deposits: 2,45,550
Immediate Debts: 300

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (72 days - up to midnight 19/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)
5K (Day 66)
3L 52.6K (Day 69)
6.5K (Day 72)

Total received so far: 6,14,500  

K = 1,000 (One thousand)
L = 1,00,000 (One hundred thousand)

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Friday, 19 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 353 of 2025

1016hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 13 days

I did get to sleep just beyond 2100hrs (9pm) and I did get to bed by 2030hrs (8:30pm). I even woke at some point between 0300hrs and 0400hrs but I didn't actually get up till 0700hrs. This goes down as a failure and I must try harder on both ends: to get to sleep by 2000hrs (8pm) and to get up by 0300hrs (3am).

13 days will flow like 13 hours or even 13 minutes.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
16
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
187
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
83
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
500

Cash in Hand: 48,630
Cash Deposits: 2,45,550
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (71 days - up to midnight 18/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)
5K (Day 66)
3L 52.6K (Day 69)

Total received so far: 6,08,000  

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Thursday, 18 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 352 of 2025

0620hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 14 days

This past night has proven to be the best yet, as I managed to wake up at 0358hrs (3:58am), after falling asleep just beyond 2100hrs (9pm) last night. I feel as if I am almost there.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
16
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
185
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
494

Cash in Hand: 49,140
Cash Deposits: 2,39,050
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (70 days - up to midnight 17/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)
5K (Day 66)
3L 52.6K (Day 69)

Total received so far: 6,08,000  

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Wednesday, 17 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 351 of 2025

1014hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 15 days

Some or even many readers of this daily weblog must be wondering why I'm giving so much time to describing my daily sleeping pattern. Well, this routine is the difference between success & failure. If I can stabilise my routine of sleeping between 2000hrs (8pm) and 0300hrs (3am) I will most definitely succeed. If I don't, I will fail. It is as simple as that.

Yesterday evening, I got to bed at about 2030hrs (8:30pm) and tried to sleep but felt compelled to respond to a call from the UK at c. 2200hrs (10pm). Yes, I did get to sleep soon after but despite waking sometime after 0300hrs (3am) I didn't quite get up till about 0645hrs (6:45am). 

I understand that I need to work much harder on this critical aspect of our struggle.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
16
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
185
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
492

Cash in Hand: 52,120
Cash Deposits: 2,39,050
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (69 days - up to midnight 16/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)
5K (Day 66)
3L 52.6K (Day 69)

Total received so far: 6,08,000  

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Tuesday, 16 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 350 of 2025

0625hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 16 days

This past evening, I managed to get to sleep by 2100hrs (9pm) and I actually woke at about 0030hrs (30 minutes after midnight) initially before falling back to sleep and waking at 0412hrs (more improvement overall), just 1 hour and 12 minutes behind my target routine. I continued lying in bed because of a flu but did eventually get up at 0600hrs.

I feel with intensity that I am almost there, where I want to be in terms of an ideal daily routine. Our fortunes will change subsequently.

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
16
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
185
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
485

Cash in Hand: 52,700
Cash Deposits: 3,52,580
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (68 days - up to midnight 15/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)
5K (Day 66)

Total received so far: 2,55,400  

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Monday, 15 December 2025

Daily Diary (DD) - Day 349 of 2025

0448hrs:

Countdown to end of 2025: 17 days

This is a lot better! I got up at 0418hrs today, having got to bed at 2030hrs (8:30pm) yesterday evening and fallen asleep by 2200hrs (10pm). This is my best start yet, in quite a while. Now, I'm only 1 hour 18 minutes behind an ideal start to the day.

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Shabbir Mayaar of Kharmang in Baltistan is a dear friend who has visited AJK many times in the past. His dilemma is an important lesson for the rights movement throughout Jammu Kashmir & Allied (areas) or JKA for short. His Urdu note will be followed by an English translation from me. That is the least that I can do for him:


لال سلام

ساتھیوں

ساتھیوں جیسا کہ 15 ماہ ہونے کو آئے ہیں کہ ہمیں اپنے آبائی گاوں میں محصور  کر کے خاموش کر دینے کی کوشش کی جا رہی ہے۔

کالی سرکار کے  وہی کالے اوچھے ہتھکنڈے استعمال کر رہی ہے، ہمیں دنیا کے سامنے دہشتگرد، مجرم اور غدار ثابت کرنے کی ناکام سازش اور کوشش کی جا رہی ہے، تاکہ ہم اپنی زمین، اپنے وسائل اور اپنے وطن کی حفاظت کی جدوجہد سے پیچھے ہٹ جائیں۔

 مگر ہم یہ واضح کردینا چاہتے ہیں کہ ایسےاوچھے ہتھکنڈوں سے نہ ہمارا حوصلہ ٹوٹا ہے، نہ ٹوٹے گا۔

آٹھ سالوں سے شیڈول فور جیسے کالے نوآبادیاتی قوانین، اے ٹی اے کی عدالتوں میں دھکیلنا، اور 15 مہینوں پر محیط نظربندی کے باعث مسلسل پیشیوں، اور ہمیں ذہنی اذیت دے کر اور روزمرہ کے معاملات سے محرومی نے ہمیں کمزور نہیں کیا، بلکہ اس نظام پر ہمارا عدم اعتماد مزید گہرا ہوا ہے۔

یہاں تک کہ اس دوران ہسپتال تک رسائی روک کر علاج معالجہ کی  سہولیات سے محروم رکھنا  بھی کالی سرکار کی  جبر کی ایک اور شکل ہے، مگر یہ سب ہمیں جھکانے میں ناکام رہے ہیں۔

ہم ان نوآبادکاروں  جو کہ سامراج کی دلال اور مظلوم قومیتوں و طبقات پر ظلم کے پہاڑ توڑ رہے ہیں، کو بتا دینا چاہتے ہیں کہ ہم نہ ڈرے ہیں نہ ڈریں گے۔

یہ ظلم، یہ جبر، یہ مقدمات یہ سب ہمارے راستے کی رکاوٹ نہیں بلکہ ہماری جدوجہد کی حقیقت کو مزید واضح کرتے ہیں۔

ہم اپنی قومی اور عوامی تحریکوں کو پہلے سے زیادہ ابھرتے ہوئے، زیادہ منظم اور زیادہ ثابت قدم ہو کر کھڑے رہیں گے۔

ہماری جدوجہد ایک فرد کی نہیں، ایک قوم، ایک طبقے، ایک مستقبل کا مقدمہ ہے۔

اور اس مقدمے سے دستبردار ہونا ہمارے بس کی بات نہیں، نہ ہمارے ارادے میں شامل ہے۔

ہم ہیں، ہم رہیں گے

اور اپنی قومی اور اپنے طبقہ کی لڑائی مزید طاقت کے ساتھ جاری رکھیں گے ۔۔۔

شبیر مایار

۔۔۔۔

Red Salute

Comrades

Comrades, it has now been 15 months since I have been confined to my ancestral village, by the dark government (forces that we are all familiar with) with their very dark & high-handed tactics, in an attempt to silence me. In front of the world it conspires to portray us as terrorists, criminals and traitors. It paints us thus so that we surrender our struggle to protect our land, our resources and our country. However, we want to make clear that such high-handed tactics have never subdued our will in the past and they will not subdue us now either.

For the past 8 years implicating us in such draconian colonial laws as Schedule 4, shoving us into ATA (Anti Terrorism Act) courts and keeping us (effectively) under house arrest for 15 months, added with constant appearances in court, while mentally torturing us and preventing us from living our normal day-to-day lives (with their associated social & economic responsibilities) have not weakened us; rather our rejection of confidence in this system (of governance) has grown deeper (as a result). Even to the extent that our medical needs have been ignored by preventing us from seeking treatment in hospital, which is just another example of tyranny on the part of the dark forces governing this region. Yet they have failed in forcing us to bow in submission.

Now, these colonial settlers as (regional) facilitators of (global) imperial forces - who are adept at meting out punishment to oppressed nations and classes - are delivering mountains of (Urdu metaphor) oppression on us. We want to inform them that we have never feared them and never will. These acts of tyranny, suppression and trials (in court) are not hurdles in our path, rather these actions clarify the reality of our struggle.

Our national and public (rights) movements will surface more vociferously than before, our stance will (gradually) become more organised & resolute as a result. Our struggle is not that of an individual, rather it is that of a nation and a class whose future is on trial. We will never turn our backs towards this trial.

We are and we will be.

We will continue the fight for freedom of our nation and class with even greater vigour (and strength). 

Shabbir Mayaar

End of translation....

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Public Finance Update:

Number of co-citizens who have paid their share (over 20 years): 
15
Number of co-citizens who have paid a portion to date, since direct public funding began in 2012:
186
Number of co-citizens who have promised to pay:
82
Number of co-citizens I have directly contacted since arriving in Dadyaal (of total 5,000):
481

Cash in Hand: 53,200
Cash Deposits: 0
Immediate Debts: 0

Public funds received so far in Dadyaal (67 days - up to midnight 14/12/2025):

3K (Day 6)
5K (Day 15) 
5K (Day 17) 
0.2K (Day 20) 
1K (Day 21) 
1K (Day 22) 
0.3K (Day 24) 
3K (Day 25)
1K (Day 26) 
4K (Day 33) 
5K (Day 38) 
1K (Day 42)
2K (Day 44)
1K (Day 45)
4K (Day 46)
3.9K (Day 47)
30.2K (Day 49)
15K (Day 51)
20K (Day 53)
1K (Day 54)
1L 39.9K (Day 56)
3.9K (Day 59)
5K (Day 66)

Total received so far: 2,55,400  

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Daily Diary (DD) - Day 355 of 2025

0603hrs: Countdown to end of 2025: 11 days Today I woke up earlier than yesterday, which is always a sign of progress, albeit still 2 hours ...